Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Life around unix telecom networking and technology ..
I think its high time that i put my thoughts now slowly on what i have worked and how i felt.So in the coming days i wld update my thoughts on technology and work .I would also share abt the problems i faced @ work and how i solved them ...
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Amma
Part1 -Amma Sep15/2007,Malabo
Never i felt what loneliness is about , had parents ..friends or some one or the other around me ...Just being alone for 3days made me to pen down something after introspecting or rather smrithi..as they say in Sanskrit.
Its September 15,/2007 ,Equitorial Guniea , Central Africa
First time i ever stepped out of India, excited or would rather call delirious..
Some time we need loneliness to introspect abt ourselves and people around. Now i think i understand how amma used to feel being alone , even now i feel i understand partially what she must have gone thru all her life .
she used to say often iam feeling lonely when are you coming back, i used to bypass the question or rather try to ignore the answer for this question as i knew and ofcourse she know ..3months..6 months Max..Amma... Amma Sigh's huh ..! u kept saying this for the last 1year .
Amma now at ..57, 14 long years since Appa left Amma alone and taking rest at peace in heaven.You ask me how come in heaven as far as i know dad was a good guy,ist just that he was not financially well off.....
Amma being alone, from the last couple of years feels quite frustated sometimes when i call her up.Me not being at home akka not being with her,she is all alone just drifting the time by going to work.
I know what iam writing here would be a mirror of many people lives,or rather a family story of many or rather many ammas situtation,when you look at this blog it looks as though you are going thru the same phase of ur life or u passed this phase of life and on the bank now little bit relaxed.
Never i wrote about Amma or how she bought me up.So i think i should dedicate something to this lady who has not just given birth to me but she was there for me ,with me for me all along the roller coster ride of my life...
Amma, born and brought up in a Ongole a small town in AndhraPradesh,in a typical orthodox family where women dont go outside and work, managed to complete her B.COM and Appa used to tease her saying be-calm.
Grandfather(Amma's Appa) a Thasildar(So called Deputy Collector of that time),u ask this question to Amma she proudly says u noe wot my father was a Thasildar and she chukles.
I remember Amma saying this often , when i was in my father house we used to get loadz of Cashewnuts and loads of Dry fruits and my father used to prepare variety of delicious dishes for us when we were kids...Childhood memories so chweet ..!
GrandMother(Amma's mother) I never saw Ammas mother when she was alive and never asked my Amma as how and when she passed away.These things least mattered to me , or rather bcos of my selective listening these things sounded so petty that i would have put a deaf ear or rather dont even recollect if amma has ever told me about these things.It must be quite possible that when amma told i should have put a deaf ear,but now i feel that i never asked her as how she was broughtup by her mother,and how much she used to love amma and other children.
They were 3 Amma,Pedamma(Amma's Sister),Mamayya(Amma's brother) a small cosy brother-sister-sister relation and Amma being the younger one.Wel i remember one thing that amma used to tell often that her mom was on bed for some time and Amma and Pedamma used to take care of their mom very much .
The word patience best describes Amma,
Down to earth/humble
Power of mind /Will power
Loving and Caring .. and much more describe Amma, the lady who manifested that change is inevitable and everyone has to adept themselves....
Would Continue with Part 2...
Never i felt what loneliness is about , had parents ..friends or some one or the other around me ...Just being alone for 3days made me to pen down something after introspecting or rather smrithi..as they say in Sanskrit.
Its September 15,/2007 ,Equitorial Guniea , Central Africa
First time i ever stepped out of India, excited or would rather call delirious..
Some time we need loneliness to introspect abt ourselves and people around. Now i think i understand how amma used to feel being alone , even now i feel i understand partially what she must have gone thru all her life .
she used to say often iam feeling lonely when are you coming back, i used to bypass the question or rather try to ignore the answer for this question as i knew and ofcourse she know ..3months..6 months Max..Amma... Amma Sigh's huh ..! u kept saying this for the last 1year .
Amma now at ..57, 14 long years since Appa left Amma alone and taking rest at peace in heaven.You ask me how come in heaven as far as i know dad was a good guy,ist just that he was not financially well off.....
Amma being alone, from the last couple of years feels quite frustated sometimes when i call her up.Me not being at home akka not being with her,she is all alone just drifting the time by going to work.
I know what iam writing here would be a mirror of many people lives,or rather a family story of many or rather many ammas situtation,when you look at this blog it looks as though you are going thru the same phase of ur life or u passed this phase of life and on the bank now little bit relaxed.
Never i wrote about Amma or how she bought me up.So i think i should dedicate something to this lady who has not just given birth to me but she was there for me ,with me for me all along the roller coster ride of my life...
Amma, born and brought up in a Ongole a small town in AndhraPradesh,in a typical orthodox family where women dont go outside and work, managed to complete her B.COM and Appa used to tease her saying be-calm.
Grandfather(Amma's Appa) a Thasildar(So called Deputy Collector of that time),u ask this question to Amma she proudly says u noe wot my father was a Thasildar and she chukles.
I remember Amma saying this often , when i was in my father house we used to get loadz of Cashewnuts and loads of Dry fruits and my father used to prepare variety of delicious dishes for us when we were kids...Childhood memories so chweet ..!
GrandMother(Amma's mother) I never saw Ammas mother when she was alive and never asked my Amma as how and when she passed away.These things least mattered to me , or rather bcos of my selective listening these things sounded so petty that i would have put a deaf ear or rather dont even recollect if amma has ever told me about these things.It must be quite possible that when amma told i should have put a deaf ear,but now i feel that i never asked her as how she was broughtup by her mother,and how much she used to love amma and other children.
They were 3 Amma,Pedamma(Amma's Sister),Mamayya(Amma's brother) a small cosy brother-sister-sister relation and Amma being the younger one.Wel i remember one thing that amma used to tell often that her mom was on bed for some time and Amma and Pedamma used to take care of their mom very much .
The word patience best describes Amma,
Down to earth/humble
Power of mind /Will power
Loving and Caring .. and much more describe Amma, the lady who manifested that change is inevitable and everyone has to adept themselves....
Would Continue with Part 2...
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